Never felt so blessed to have friends who are so concern even can ask a priest to send me to see a doctor. Not even one of my family did that…
We only see our needs more then we see others needs that’s the worst sickness that one can get in one’s life cause it may take a long time to heal that sickness - Pride.
Period.
Was actually thinking of updating my blog but then my tiredness is pushing me more to the bed than to stay up and update my blog… tomorrow I shall update then…
Stay tune…
Long awaited post which I procrastinated to post it…
Well 2 weeks has past and I guess I enjoy my current company cause I have been doing alot of things. 1st week I was in the store trying to remember the store items and the products that my company buys from and etc. I was afraid cause my work place is a mandarin speaking environment and my mandarin is not that very good but I told myself that I will learn and brush up my mandarin and learn as many as possible as I can in the company that God put me in.
Its really a company that God give to me cause number 1 I have free transport everyday (Monday - Saturday) to work, number 2 my boss spoke to that he will send me for course to upgrade me as to prepare me for the upcoming work and also for future companies that I will work into. He is very frank with me that he wants me to excel and not be a worker for the rest of my entire life.
God’s ways definitely is not our ways!
2nd week I was attached with a electrical technician supervisor to go to on site and to observe how the workers do their task everyday and etc. I felt at once that I’m with the electrical technicians doing the same thing and learning a lot of things from them. I had the chance to do some minor work as the supervisor told me “if you don’t do the work you will not learn from see it” I find that is so true cause seeing is one thing but doing it is another thing.
Eastertide is here and I see God really goes before me. I was really worried that I couldn’t make it for Easter Vigil last week at CAYC aka Nativity Youth Centre as I always look forward to that big event in the Church, Mother of all Vigils but one priest told me “you don’t have to worry about it, just let God be God. He will take care of it” well truly enough I didn’t really bother about it and let Him to take care of it and I was able to be there and I shared that truly God goes before me as he said in the Scriptures “But you must go and tell his disciples and Peter, “He is going before you to Galilee; it is there you will see him, just as he told you.” ‘” Mark 16:7
I’m really glad to have this God who is so Awesome in His ways and He wants me and everyone to go to Him and be with Him for eternity cause we are all made by Him and all are His masterpiece. To this I end here and I promise I will try to update my blog more regular than last time.
Blessed & Holy Easter (Today is Divine Mercy Sunday!) to all of you and to your family!
Christ is Risen! He is Truly Risen! Alleluia!
Good Homily by Fr Lawrence Lew, OP
MY FRIEND INDEED!
HOMILY for the 5th Sunday of Lent (B)
Jeremiah 31:31-34; Ps 50; Heb 5:7-9; John 12:20-33
Today’s Gospel begins with friendship, with something quite familiar, as some Greeks approach their friend Philip, and with his friend Andrew, they ask to be introduced to Jesus. And so, like those Greeks, perhaps we can approach Jesus in this Gospel through the lens of friendship, which is an important theme in St John’s Gospel.
The key sentence on friendship from St John’s Gospel is this: ”Greater love has no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends” (15:13). So, a friend is one who loves by giving himself to others, and, ultimately, the greatest gift a friend can give is his own life. Hence, the philosopher Roger Scruton notes that “friendship is a form of generosity”, of giving. The fundamental idea of friendship as rooted in self-gift is found in Jesus’ image of the grain. Hence, Jesus proclaims that his “purpose” is to give himself, even his life, for the good of others. Thus, he is speaking about love, but a particular kind of love which he only makes explicit later on in the Gospel, namely friendship. So, Jesus, by dying for our sakes is the Friend of humanity. And Samuel Crossman puts it beautifully in his famous hymn: “But O! my Friend, my Friend indeed, Who at my need His life did spend”.
HOMILY for Thu in Week 4 of Lent
Exodus 32:7-14; Ps 105; John 5:31-47 – preached at the Missionaries of Charity Convent, Edinburgh
Yesterday’s Gospel spoke of judgment, of making a decision, a choice for Jesus. By placing our trust in Christ and believing his Word we already have eternal life. With lives founded on faith in who he is, sustained by hope in his promises, and motivated by love for him in our actions, heaven has already begun for those who believe in Christ. For these theological virtues make of our simple lives “something beautiful for God”.
But there are many who are still searching for God, so that, like the Jews in today’s Gospel, they search books, even reading the Scriptures, and they look to great thinkers and leaders for guidance. But somehow, they fail to recognize the One to whom every authentic quest for Truth, Goodness and Beauty points. Why is this?
In part, I think it is because Man is prone to creating images of himself, to glorying in created things, and to trying to conform God to his limited worldview rather than letting the Uncreated One, who is Other than His creation, challenge and expand Man’s horizons. For that is who Jesus is: the One who initiates us into the freedom and expansiveness of God, so that, by his grace, our humanity is elevated beyond natural horizons to the supernatural, making us partakers in his divinity.
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I realised is not easy to control oneself of its anger and the limit of patience is getting worst and worst. I just don’t how to learn to be how I used to be. This body is really a wicked body, I want to do good but my body do the other. I just feel so unworthy.
Suffering and struggle will always be there no matter how one try to run away from it. I accept the sufferings and the struggles but I can just get so sick and tired of it. This is not me. I realised it. THIS IS NOTN ME!
I woke up by a odd dream that I don’t think I wanted it to happen. It goes like this, I was walking on a path that I wasn’t sure where it leaded me to and there at a distance I was a group of people whom I know them and they were arguing. Whole family scolding one person and when I reach at the spot the attention was on me and they continue scolding me for not doing something which I already knew about it though I kept silent towards the family about it. I remember I mentioned about it to that person who was getting the blame and scolding but that person knows what he/she is doing but just kept silent.
An idea came to my mind when I was still asleep I think though after that idea I woke up and I couldn’t sleep anymore cause I was fully awake though it was a 4hrs sleep. That idea was just speak to the mother about it but why to the mother? Why speak to her? Why must I do that? Is it important? Or am I still holding on to something? Is it God or the devil speaking to me?
“‘As it was in Noah’s day, so will it be when the Son of man comes. For in those days before the Flood people were eating, drinking, taking wives, taking husbands, right up to the day Noah went into the ark, and they suspected nothing till the Flood came and swept them all away. This is what it will be like when the Son of man comes. Then of two men in the fields, one is taken, one left; of two women grinding at the mill, one is taken, one left. ‘So stay awake, because you do not know the day when your master is coming. You may be quite sure of this, that if the householder had known at what time of the night the burglar would come, he would have stayed awake and would not have allowed anyone to break through the wall of his house. Therefore, you too must stand ready because the Son of man is coming at an hour you do not expect.” - Matthew 24:37-44
Time to time the Lord reminds me to be on guard, to be alert, to stand ready for anything. Be it the wicked tricks of the devil or Jesus’ second coming to the earth.
The story of Noah and the ark very well tells and shows me the society today in our midst. People do not know who is God, do not know Jesus, some of them do not know that they are wasting their life away by enslaving themselves to drinking, sex, drugs, pornography addictions and many more as it is stated in verse 38 it says “For in those days before the Flood people were eating, drinking, taking wives, taking husbands, right up to the day Noah went into the ark.”
Jesus in his mission always tell the people and to me today to “Repent for the Kingdom of God is very near at hand”. What’s is repentance? Jesus always use this word “Repent” in his preaching. Why do I need to repent? Many a times I see myself that this word “Repent” is not for me cause of my pride that I do not see a need. As I remembered one priest told me “Everyday is a gift of Conversion/Repentance”
God takes my life and everybody’s life very seriously. Most of the time I don’t realised how serious life can be actually. If God created everything that is good why must I destroy it and turn it into bad?
To come before God knowing that He loves me for he is a Compassionate God and also a Just God, I should not fear for He is my Father that cares for me and ALL His children. For that I should be grateful for a God who cares for me.
It’s been awhile… Yes I know and I truly understand that I forgotten about you…
Today’s mini event questions me about myself, my attitude, my everything. It started of as a question but turn out to be a argument, I was with my friends 1 was angry or rather not sure of my friend’s feelings and emotions, and the other just speaking and advising to me about how I can see at the situation as something positive.
Yes, I agree that I was pissed because I know at that moment I couldn’t control my feelings and emotions. I just don’t know whether am I speaking to my REAL friend or am I speaking to a Psychology Student?
Lately I feel inferior, small though I’m big in size and weight. My friends are way ahead of me but I’m still stuck at somewhere.
Who are my friends? Who am I? Why am I acting like this? What is my motive for acting like this? Is this really who am I?
I just don’t know where to begin… I’m totally lost in a world of intelligent people around, with their ideas and speech.
Good night.
The End.
I was motivated to write this post before I hit on to bed and call it for a day… after the 40 hrs adoration with Jesus I felt that Jesus is always there with me in whatever events of my life and at some part of the hours, I felt that I wasting my time with Jesus by doing nothing there and let Him to see me in whatever way I am in, be it awake looking at Him or asleep in a non-comfortable position.
But there is something that I cant find to pin point at… I know that I’m struggling with my super bad mood swings which people around me suffers the most and at time I just cant help it because of certain things happened. I thought after the 40 hrs of adoration I would be feeling good and etc. but after I stepped out of church which I visited to pray my rosary before the new year comes, my mood just change so sudden that I don’t know how to explain and I cant help it at that very moment.
What made it worst was my right knee a sudden pain just struck and I was in great pain and great discomfort also which I just kept quiet.
What is the problem that I’m always not happy about? The same old issue? Someone? Internal warfare?
Lord Jesus, take pity on me for I am a sinner.
Lord, I need help!
There’s this war or persecution within me thats making me so bitter towards people around me.
This war I’m afraid that I will lose and die.
Lord, I serious need your help. Please help me if not I may lose this battle, lose my life away.
Life can be complicated.
Is either you are who you are or you are not the who you are. Everyday is a constant fight against many things, sometimes I give up and let the battle to be lost and sometimes I continue to fight till the end.
I think I will just be silent at everything because to speak my mind or don’t speak the same thing will just happened. So I rather be silent and suffer at the next life.
Till then…
I’m starting to doubt at you…
